I had a blog, years ago, where I shared things that were going on in our family. In our journey with the twins. I quit it because some people were upset about my content, although nothing I said was a lie. I'm writing this one now because I need an outlet for my thoughts and feelings. Basically the same reason I'm writing this one.

Our life with the twins has never been easy. They came to us with problems. Problems we have worked on and overcome. Then new ones come along. Right now our daughter is having issues. Is it Autism? I don't know. I can't seen to find the answers I need to help her. I've been letting it get me down. I tend to get melancholy anyway. She's a sweet girl, a good girl, and it's hard to see her go through the twins she's going through. I want answers. I want her to be well. All I've ever wanted for the twin's is for them to grow up to be good, responsible adults, able to live good lives.

I've been depressed about this, but yesterday I woke up and everything was different. It's like God told me to just love her through it and she will be ok. For a long time I've been living in the past. Going over and over all the things in the last alnost 15 years that have happened. I realize that's not helpful, to me or them. So I'm praying that I'm done with it. I want to be in the present.